Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Dan sebenarnya..i am not really okay


Dan Sebenarnya - Yuna


oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh


I am okay

But i can't lie that i am not really okay

Come on, it was nearly 5 years

I had passed the state when i thought i was okay

And now i am haunted

Especially when i saw her profile on fb

Thinking..how on earth..?

I just have to accept that he is not meant and the one for me

There is no more hope and i don't have any left

Still, I need time

Please, bear with me with all these pathetic stuffs i am expressing

Coz i am not really okay

When i believe that i am okay


T: "U x rase seronok ke when someone cares about u and u have someone to care about when u're far from ur family?"

Me: "Xpe, i have my friends for me to care about and i know they care for me too. That is more than enough to keep me happy and i am thankful for it. They are my family here."




4 comments:

  1. saye sayang awak iynas! jgn down2!

    :D

    ps : kalau awak sedih just ingat yg si Blair waldorf awak nie ade untuk menemani hari2 mendatangmu, wah.. ayat takleh blah. ahahah

    seriously, JGN SEDIH2 ok!

    insyaAllah, everything will be fine one day.. just pray for it. pray for the best ok?

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  2. can't tell you not to be down because someone down DOESN'T want to be down and s/he wants to be ANYTHING but down.

    and can't tell you what to do not to be down as well. maybe kita cuma perlu hadapi aje rasa tak okay tu,

    TAPI, u've been blessed with friends who won't let you fall hard enough.

    and iynas, what i learnt from these past few years, life is really a cycle. u are down today but you can be on top as soon as tommorrow (saya naik turun, naik turun selang sehari hahaha)

    anyway, dah panjang dah ni.

    take gud care of yourself=)

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  3. kak farah~ keciwa kak farah xde hari tu..

    betul, xde ape yg boleh dibuat melainkan hadapi saje rase itu..

    betul juge, saye ade kawan2 di sekeliling saye, termasuk kak farah yg sentiasa memberi kata2 semangat utk saye..

    terima kasih kak farah. sayang kak farah!

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  4. lor...i oso care bout u...neway juz pray for d best 4 u...jgn sedey2 ok...what goes around comes around...its really happened ok...

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