Monday, March 23, 2015

Maafkan Aku by Ir Radzi (OST Teman Lelaki Upahan)

The story, Teman Lelaki Upahan is one thing - superb story line (takde tipikal dengki-mendengki, kahwin paksa, rebut harta), superb cast, superb emotion. 

The soundtracks are another. I love all the soundtracks - Rahsia & Hujan Sepi (Ippo Hafiz), Angin Kencang (Noh Salleh) and this one here..

The voice..

The melody..

The lyrics..

Perfectly soothing and full of emotion that catches my heart every time I listen to it..


Lirik Lagu Maafkan Aku - Ir Radzi

Telah ku buat
Dirimu menangis
Jahat ku jahat
Menyakiti hatimu

Maafkan aku cinta
Maafkanlah salahku
Sungguh aku menyesali
Telah buatmu terluka

Maafkan aku cinta
Jangan kau tinggalkan aku
Ku mohon padamu
Maafkanlah aku

Jahat ku jahat
Menyakiti hatimu

Maafkan aku cinta
Maafkanlah salahku
Sungguh aku menyesali
Telah buatmu terluka

Maafkan aku cinta
Jangan kau tinggalkan aku
Ku mohon padamu
Maafkanlah aku

Sungguh aku menyesali
Telah buatmu terluka

Maafkan aku cinta
Jangan kau tinggalkan aku
Ku mohon padamu
Maafkanlah aku

Ku mohon padamu
Maafkanlah aku 

Sumber :

Sunday, March 22, 2015


Crosspost from Habibi Halaqas
by Anonymous

To Allāh belongs the kingdom of the heavens and the earth. He creates what He wills. He bestows female (offspring) upon whom He wills, and bestows male (offspring) upon whom He wills. Or He bestows both males and females, and He renders barren whom He wills. Verily, He is the All-Knower and is Able to do all things. [Surah Ash-Shura, 42:49-50]

It is the way how this Dunya rolls and it is the way how Allāh SWT has designed this Dunya to be. 
You may have something that other people have. 
And you may not have something that other people do not have.

Single people want to get married (and fast) because they think that's the only part of their religion that's deficient. 
Married people want to have children (and fast) because they think the only way they could truly be happy (and successful) is by having children. 
People with children want them to have the best of everything in this Dunya.
People with the best God-fearing children fear that their children would end up as failures in Dunya. 
And people with not-so-God-fearing children fear for their kids in the Ākhirah aspect. 

Married people want their freedom. 
Free single people want to be tied down in a commitment.

So the issue here is that we have to accept that regardless of what we want in this Dunya and regardless of whether or not we get it, we're still going to want more. 

And more. 
And so much more.

I've got proof:

On the authority of Anas b. Mālik, may Allāh be pleased with him, who narrated that Allāh's Messenger, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “If the son of Ādam had a valley full of gold, he would love to have two valleys, for nothing fills his mouth except dust. And Allāh forgives him who repents.” [Sahih Bukhāri, Volume 8 Book 76 Number 447]

I mean it's alright to want all those things because that's how Allāh SWT created us.

It's perfectly normal.

'Beautified for mankind is love of the joys (that come) from women and offspring; and stored-up heaps of gold and silver, and horses branded (with their mark), and cattle and land. That is comfort of the life of the world. Allāh! With Him is a more excellent abode.' [Surah Āle-'Imrān, 3:14].

But being focused on those things only in this world is not a healthy way to live in this Dunya. Your camera of life should not be zoomed onto this Dunya. A true Muslimah has foresight. She can see farther than that. Her eyes should be on something much better than all the pleasures of this Dunya. Allāh SWT continues the above verse:

'Say: Shall I inform you of something better than that? For those who keep from evil, with their Lord, are Gardens underneath which rivers flow wherein they will abide, and pure companions, and contentment from Allāh. Allāh is Seer of His bondmen, Those who say: “Our Lord! We have indeed believed, so forgive us our sins and save us from the punishment of the Fire.” (They are) those who are patient, those who are true (in Faith, words, and deeds), and obedient with sincere devotion in worship to Allâh. Those who spend [give the Zakât and alms in the Way of Allâh] and those who pray and beg Allâh's Pardon in the last hours of the night. [Surah Āle-'Imrān, 3:15-17]

Allāh SWT promises you a kind of happiness that does not end. A promise of a Garden, your home inshaa'Allāh, for which you don't have to pay any bills. A husband or a companion who's physically and spiritually devoid of anything negative and unpleasing. And Allāh SWT's Pleasure! Imagine that all that time you gave up things fearing Allāh SWT and seeking His pleasure…in Jannah, how relieved you would be! That Allāh SWT is pleased with you eternally. But to be able to achieve all that one will have to do the following according to the verse above:
  • Ask for forgiveness for sins and seek refuge from punishment of the Fire
  • Be patient
  • True to Deen in actions and words
  • Obedient with sincere devotion in worship to Allāh SWT
  • Spend Zakah
  • Pray and beg Allāh SWT's Pardon in the last hours of the night (Qiyām al layl)
Dear Muslim Sisters: just because you don't have children, it doesn't mean that you are:
  • The only one being tested
  • The only one who does not have a certain type of blessing
  • That there's something 'wrong' with you
What is worse is that people may start pitying you. Some people start making up stories about you. You don't have time to waste if people do as they say these things. And you certainly don't have time to waste your life thinking that true successful marriage should be equated to children. As long as Allāh SWT did not say that, who are YOU to adopt such a definition? Worth thinking about. Isn't it?

What this also means is that just because you don't have a child right now, you won't have one forever. If it was easy for Allāh SWT to create Ādam AS without any parents and 'Īsa b. Maryam without any father, then do you think it is impossible for Him to bless you with a child?

What about the story of Zachariya AS who was very old and his wife who was barren? He said:

“My Lord! How can I have a son, when my wife is barren, and I have reached the extreme old age.” He said: “So (it will be). Your Lord says; It is easy for Me. Certainly I have created you before, when you had been nothing!” [Surah Maryam, 19:8-9]

So what is it then which is preventing Allāh SWT from blessing you with a child?

Some reasons could be as follows:
–> You and your husband can't handle a child. Maybe it'll divert you from the Deen of Allāh SWT! Remember the story in Suratul Kāhf  in which Khidr killed a boy because he was going to oppress his parents when he grew up?!

'Then they both proceeded, till they met a boy, he (Khidr) killed him.  Mūsa(Moses) said: “Have you killed an innocent person who had killed none? Verily, you have committed a thing “Nukr” (a great Munkar – prohibited, evil, dreadful thing)!” (74)”And as for the boy, his parents were believers, and we feared lest he should oppress them by rebellion and disbelief. (80) [Surah Al Kāhf ]

Think about that! And Allāh SWT does not burden a soul beyond its capacity.

'Allâh burdens not a person beyond his scope. He gets reward for that (good) which he has earned, and he is punished for that (evil) which he has earned…' [Surah Al Baqarah, verse 286]

–> You and your husband's past sins. Now it doesn't mean that those who have kids are righteous people. Not at all. But when one faces a certain challenging situation, one must look at oneself and see why is that certain type of Rizq is not coming my way? Rizq includes money, kids, spouse…in fact it includes everything that Allāh SWT bestows us with. Here's a solution in the Qurʾān :

“I said (to them): 'Ask forgiveness from your Lord; Verily, He is Oft-Forgiving; 'He will send rain to you in abundance; 'And give you increase in wealth and children, and bestow on you gardens and bestow on you rivers.' ” [Surah An Nooh, 71:10-12]

Here Prophet Nooh AS proposes one key method to get rain, increase in wealth and children. And that one key method is Istighfaar. If you really want kids, you may want to focus on creating a routine of Istighfaar. Of course, most of you want kids. Would most of you end up asking for forgiveness?

–> Allāh SWT wants to choose you for Himself. What I mean by that is, often times our hearts are filled with love for people and things. Once those people and things no longer reside in our heart, then only we have room for Allāh SWT. One can never have Allāh SWT and love for this Dunya in their hearts because we all know that hearts are like any other vessels. So we end up then pleasing those whom we love, forgetting the One who granted us the object that we loved and the emotion of love itself.

'…And of mankind are some that set up rivals; unto Allāh they love them as with the love due to Allāh. And those who believe are strongest in love of Allāh…'[Surah al Baqarah, 2:165]

By not granting you kids, Allāh SWT does not want you to waste those emotions over kids. Instead He SWT wants you to love Him more than anyone else. He want to empty your heart from all other types of love which shackle you and make you weak and He wants you to love only Him. Him Alone. So much so that your eyes only see the Guidance He SWT has sent, your ears hear what He SWT wants you to hear…He SWT does not want you to get distracted. He wants you to be focused on the greater purpose of your creation…

Makes you love Allāh SWT more, right?

I mean imagine the situation of Aisha RA. She did not have any kids. But you know what? She ended up teaching and guiding millions and billions of kids. She was not only a mother because she's the Mother of Believers…she lived up to it by caring for those who came to learn from her just like a mother.

So what if you don't ever become a mother? Can't you channelize that love and guide other people's kids? Can't you become a mother to those kids who are orphaned? Can't you be a form of mercy by educating other kids to become great Muslims?

Think about it! Think about the reward!

You may not become a Khadija, who gave birth to all Prophet's kids but you then get the chance to become Aisha. Khadija, may Allāh SWT be pleased with her, raised excellent kids and we know all the wonderful qualities she had and all the beautiful ways she contributed towards advancement of Islam. But she didn't get the chance like Aisha RA, i.e. to teach the Salaf, to become a Faqiha. 


 Because Allāh SWT gives some people some blessings while others, other blessings.

What's important to remember is how would YOU utilize the blessings that you have in His Path?
One way to be content with whatever comes your way is by having good expectations of Allāh SWT. If Allāh SWT made things happen, then know that they are good for you. You may not know but Allāh SWT does because He SWT loves you more than you or anyone can love you.

“Allāh `azza wa jall said: 
'Verily, from amongst My slaves is he whose faith cannot be rectified except by being inflicted with poverty, and were I to enrich him, it would surely corrupt him. Verily, from amongst My slaves is he whose faith cannot be rectified except by wealth and affluence, and were I to deprive him, it would surely corrupt him. Verily, from amongst My slaves is he whose faith cannot be rectified except by good health, and were I to make him sick, it would surely corrupt him. Verily, from amongst My slaves is he whose faith cannot be rectified except by disease and illness, and were I to make him healthy, it would surely corrupt him. Verily, from amongst My slaves is he who seeks worship by a certain act but I prevent that from him so that self amazement does not enter his heart. Certainly, I run the affairs of My slaves by My Knowledge of what is in their hearts. Certainly, I am the All-Knower, All-Aware'.” [Tabarani]

So be content and leave everything to Him.

Because He SWT knows what we want and He SWT knows when to grant us what we want. Or sometimes whether or not to grant us those things. For He SWT knows best.

Some duaas that you can recite daily (all from Qurʾān ) to be blessed with righteous offspring and/or rectify the state of current offspring:
  • Surah Al Baqarah, verse 128
  • Surah Āle-'Imrān, verse 38
  • Surah Ibrāhīm, verse 40
  • Surah Al-Furqān, verse 74
And how can you ensure that Allāh SWT listens to your duaa? Look at what Zachariya AS and his wife are described as doing:

And (remember) Zakariyya (Zachariah), when he cried to his Lord: “O My Lord! Leave me not single (childless), though You are the Best of the inheritors.” So We answered his call, and We bestowed upon him Yahya (John), and cured his wife (to bear a child) for him. Verily, they used to hasten on to do good deeds, and they used to call on Us with hope and fear, and used to humble themselves before Us. [Surah Al Anbiya, 21:89-90]

But always remember:

'And it is not your wealth, nor your children that bring you nearer to Us (i.e. pleases Allâh), but only he who believes (in the Islâmic Monotheism), and does righteous deeds (will please us); as for such, there will be twofold reward for what they did, and they will reside in the high dwellings (Paradise) in peace and security.' [Surah Saba,34:37]

Why's that? Because:

'Wealth and children are the adornment of the life of this world. But the good righteous deeds, that last, are better with your Lord for rewards and better in respect of hope. [Surah Al Kāhf , 18:46]

May Allāh SWT make us content with what He has Decreed for us and bless our Ummah with righteous offspring. 


And Allāh SWT knows Best. 

Please remember me in your duaas.

Wasalamu alaykum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

From a sister who cares.

(Source from:

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Farhan - Dengarlah Rindu (OST Asam Pedas Untuk Dia)

At first I tak tengok pun drama nie. Being ignorant gitu. Mana taknya, jalan cerita drama adaptasi novel lebih kurang je lately. 

One fine day (Saturday ke Sunday I tak ingat - since drama nie tayang weekends je), my sister laa beriya nak rekod cite nie kat Astro. Padahal tengah tengok tu. Nak rekod gak. Whatever. Layan je laa. Tengok gitu-gitu je. Sekali sangkut. Amek. Pelakon tak kenal sangat tapi lakonan memang best. Sempoi tapi natural. Jalan cerita tak sama sangat macam kena-kahwin-paksa-pastu-bercinta punya type tu. Dengan lagu soundtrack pun I suka. Macam lagu lama-lama gitu. Rupanya si Farhan AF nie yang nyanyi. Sedap. The song keeps on playing in my head, hence the YouTube search.


Farhan - Dengarlah Rindu
OST Asam Pedas Untuk Dia (TV3)
Pelakon Utama: Shukri Yahaya & Dayana Roza

Hadith Guide #3

"Dua Nikmat Kurniaan Allah"

Riwayat:  Bukhari

Daripada Abdullah bin Abas RA katanya, Rasullullah SAW bersabda, “Dua nikmat, banyak manusia rugi padanya (kerana mensia-siakannya) iaitu kesihatan dan kelapangan.”
Huraian Hadith: 
Kita hendaklah menghargai dua nikmat iaitu kesihatan dan kelapangan.

Kita hendaklah memanfaatkan segala nikmat yang diberikan untuk mendekatkan diri kepada keredhaan Allah dan melakukan kebajikan sebelum terlambat.

Seseorang hendaklah menjaga nikmat kesihatan sebelum sakit dan nikmat kelapangan untuk memerangi hawa nafsu ke arah kejayaan.

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Hadith Guide #2

Senyum itu Sedekah

Riwayat:  Bukhari dan Muslim

Daripada Aishah RA katanya, “Aku tidak pernah melihat Rasulullah SAW ketawa kuat sehingga nampak anak tekaknya, (tetapi) Baginda hanya tersenyum sahaja.”
Huraian Hadith: 
Rasulullah SAW merupakan contoh yang paling tepat dan baik di dalam semua perkara.

Seseorang itu dilarang ketawa sehingga terbahak-bahak. Banyak ketawa menunjukkan seseorang itu lalai daripada mengingati Allah dan menghilangkan rasa hormat daripada orang lain.

Islam sentiasa menggalakkan seseorang itu senyum, kerana senyuman itu merupakan satu sedekah.

Indeed, He is The Best Planner of All

31/8/2014 - Tarikh sepatutnya aku berkahwin. 

3/9/2014 - Tarikh aku bertukar ke department baru. Lebih bertenaga. Lebih happy. Lebih tenang. 

Alhamdulillah. He knows what is the best for me. Just follow His plans. 

After all our main duty is to worship Him, do our best in anything we do, and most importantly..tawakkal.

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Hadith Guide #1

"Tangan yang Memberi Lebih Baik daripada Tangan yang Meminta”

Riwayat:  Bukhari dan Muslim

Daripada Ibnu Umar RA bahawasanya Rasulullah SAW bersabda ketika berada di atas mimbar. Baginda menyebut mengenai sedekah dan menahan diri daripada meminta-minta. (Dengan sabdanya) “Tangan yang di sebelah atas lebih baik daripada tangan yang di sebelah bawah. Tangan di sebelah atas ialah yang memberi dan tangan yang di sebelah bawah ialah yang meminta.
Huraian Hadith: 
Islam memandang rendah kepada orang yang suka meminta-minta kerana ia akan melahirkan perasaan suka mengharap dan sentiasa bergantung kepada orang lain.

Sifat suka memberi kepada orang lain adalah di tuntut Islam.

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

This is for you, Wanita.

Setiap kali ada hari atau event berkaitan wanita, aku akan ingat satu lagu sahaja - Wanita by Salamiah Hassan. 

Engkau bulan 
Engkau juga suria
Kerana keistimewaanmu
Terpikul segala amanah di bahumu"

Lyrics that have been stucked in my head since dont know when. Masa darjah2 kot. Ouh well.  

Sempena menyambut International Women's Day pada 8 Mac, Maybank pun nak bagi penghargaan kepada staf-staf wanita yang banyak berjasa dan menyumbang kepada bank. We were given purple carnation flowers. Each and every one of us. Sekuntum je laa tapi heheh. I guess enough to make us feel appreciated :)

Tak mudah ok. Especially bila berkawan dengan wanita yang dah bergelar ibu, lagi akan faham cabaran mereka. Totally not an easy task to juggle with 3-in-1, (sometimes 4-in-1) duty as a wife, mother, daughter, and worker. We're constantly gonna keep ourselves fit and healthy to do all the "standard requirement" tasks, at the same time to maintain our beauty needs. Fuh. Time management and multi-tasking is super-duper required skill to master. 

Back to the purple carnation flowers, since it is a gift from the Bank, we shall take group selfie photos right? 

Ada kaitan tak?

Ini dah kurang wanita, tetapi lebih kepada kanak-kanak ribena tak pernah jumpa bunga. 

Monday, March 9, 2015

The Survivor Dish

Nasi putih. Telur dadar. Kicap. 


Nak tambah umphhh lagi dengan sambal ikan bilis dan timun. 

Perfect survivor dish. 

I remember during my study time in Wellington. Bila lapar atau nak cepat je paling senang masak nasi goreng telur. Mudah dan cepat dari segi penyediaan dan proses menghabiskan makanan.

My housemate tanya, "Kenyang ke?"


Kenyang kottt. Setiap kali tengok gambar nie rasa nak makan berkali-kali. Mujurlah diri ini jenis susah nak jemu makan benda sama kalau dah suka. 

Tengok gambar pun dah rasa kenyang. Hihi.

Ok Iynas, ok. We got your point. 



Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Tips: What to do when your iPhone 5s got hang?

Press the Start button (on the top right of the iPhone) and the Home button simultaneously. Your screen will become white. Press and wait for about 10 seconds until the Apple logo appears. 

Based on my own experience after googled the solutions with some try-and-error. 

Mine happened after I downloaded the latest iOs 8.1.3. 

Couldn't even slide to unlock. And the clock stayed still. 

Cuak hokeyh. 

Alhamdulillah all is fine now. Big thanks to my lovely friend who took the effort to google and help me with the try-and-error process. 

Monday, March 2, 2015

Allah belum izin

Search address. Found. Waze started navigate.

I seldom do this kind of thing. I need to prepare myself emotionally. I will take risk only if I am ready to accept the consequences.

Hence I proceed. Traffic was smooth. Found the place easily. Alhamdulillah, good sign.

Stepped out of the car. Entered the restaurant. Found a spot. Browsed through the menu. Ordered.

I ate slowly. The food was good. But my mind wasn't there. Uploaded a photo in Instagram to keep myself calm. Upload failed all the way. My left eyes became itchy out of sudden. Rubbed few times with my left forefinger.

Done with my meal. I didn't even finish it. Took out a piece of paper and a pen. Wrote the message. As planned.

Asked waiter for the bill. He came and I asked,

"Does this restaurant have a cook by the name of..." and started describing briefly.

"We did. But that person is no longer here. Resigned 2 years ago", the waiter replied. 

Did that person purposely gave me wrong info?

I can't helped but smiled. Alhamdulillah. At least I've tried.

Allah belum izin.

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Hello March 2015!

Bila dah lama tinggal, susah nak mula balik.

What is it that I don't have? Push factor? Inspiration? Ideas to write?

Malam tadi tak boleh nak tido. Scroll channel menu kat Astro pun takde cite best. Nak main Soda Crush Saga takde mood. Nak baca novel tapi tak nak dibuai perasaan palsu. Sudah. Lost.

Solat. Baca Quran. Tengah uzur. Boleh zikir. But I wanna do something. Something that can make me lost in me. Something that I think I do best.

Hence another blog layout. The last time I change the layout was in mid 2014, wrote few posts, then abandoned it again until today. Will the cycle start again?

Masalah diri pasal blogging, bila tengah ada idea masa tu jugak nak tulis. Tapi masa tu laa tengah driving, tengah keje siapkan credit papers. From Client Coverage to Corporate Banking, my time often been occupied with numbers, ratios, analysis, cash flows, calculations and the list goes on..

So can I be consistent in blogging again? I hope yes. Coz I have found out that these days I spent most of the times at home, playing Soda Crush Saga. If not, watching action movies. Thanks to Kingsman and the Secret Service, I prefer actions to love stories now. Enough with all the lovey-dovet things. Penat.

Wait. Is this about me being old?

Chill. I'm just 28. And single. Chill. As cliche as it sounds, age is just a number.

- Panic mode button on and off -

Today is the 1st of March 2015. Just nice timing to start blogging again in 2015. Thanks to the can't-sleep-condition last night Ya Allah. I view this as another hikmah for me to make a comeback. In writing. In blogging.