Saturday, June 25, 2016

The gift and the search of better gifts in the final 10 days of Ramadhan

Today marks the final 10 days! Let's strive and finish strong! 💪💪💪 

If I can push myself in working out physically, surely I can push myself in "working out" my soul and emotional state. Doing so in Ramadhan is the perfect timing. After all, I will always remember your words, 

"Push yourself to the limit! And be patient". 

That's one of many good things that will remind me of you. Good memory remains forever. What more when it does relevantly applicable to many situations. 

And ouh! You first reveal about me to your parents during one of the sahur days in Ramadhan, exactly 60 days after we knew each other. I can still recall how thankful and grateful I was when you told your parents about me and the intention to go to the next level in the holy month. 

I thought I was strong. Allowing someone to occupy my heart had made me realized that I am weak. As much as I want others to be held responsible, at the end of the day it is me who needs to be responsible for my own happiness. Others can agree or annoyingly leave me alone. But this is the process that I have to embrace, accept and deal with. To strengthen my heart again. 

Today, alhamdulillah Allah has made me realized that the ability to missing someone once very dearly to the heart is actually a blessing. 

Thank you Allah for lending me the memorable gift, although just for a while 🙂. I ask from only You Ya Rabb, for better gifts. The best gifts. 

And with the confession, this post shall be my last words about it..

"Indeed I am in absolute need of good things You send to me" - the prayer of Nabi Musa a.s. in Surah Al-Qasas verse 24. 

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Realiti & Mimpi

Pernahkah kau merasakan
Hidup ini seperti mimpi yang panjang
Ingin saja aku keluar darinya
Namun terlindung jalan keluarnya
Gembira, suka, lebih lagi sedih duka
Seakan ditempelak setiap kali leka
Sehingga lemah longlai langkah kakinya
Tanpa jemu dan lelah bangun semula
Ada kala aku seperti dibawa jauh
Jauh dari realiti yang aku mimpikan sendiri
Pernah aku terbaca
Hidup ini ibarat penjara buat yang celik hatinya
Namun jika benar terang jiwanya, kenapa tidak hidup ini dipandang melangkaui tembok penjara?
Sehingga timbul jalan keluarnya
Bila kita betul-betul bersedia
Yang hanya diketahui oleh Yang Maha Esa. 

Monday, April 11, 2016


People come and go..

But I pray and hope that Allah will protect this 9-years-and-more friendship till Jannah..ameen..

- With Love,
Setitischeese @ Pulau Kapas, 8-10 April 2016 -

Thursday, February 4, 2016

The Lightest

My dream weight. 

Mission accomplished. 

Next is to maintain. 

I think with my cute height, i can go until 48kg. 

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Tinta pena Luh Mahfuz telah lama mengering

Dalam erti kata lain, yakin dengan qada' dan qadar Allah. 

The trip to New Zealand was supposed to be cancelled. Although dah beli tiket since bulan 4 before i knew him. Coz the plan was to get married early next year i.e. 2016. So we need to manage the financial. I had actually received the refund of the trip. 

Takdir Allah yang mengizinkan sama ada sesuatu berlaku ataupun tidak. 

Tak jadi kahwin, proceed with the trip. Alhamdulillah the tour management was very kind enough to receive my last minute payment. 

Sesungguhnya perancangan Allah tu amat cantik. Walaupun ada dugaan my visa almost tak lepas di airport before departure sebab tukar pasport last minute (due to less than 6 months expiry date from the travel date), dan masa nak balik tu i tak check-in lagi even da one hour to the next flight coz flight delayed and i takleh buat website check-in coz of different passport number (thanks to dear friend dan sekumpulan group trip yg menghadapi masalah sama dan sudi terima saya join group check-in anda). Despite of all the challenges, Allah izinkan saya bergumbira sepuasnya di New Zealand dan bertemu orang2 yang sangat baik, tak berkira, full of love, sama2 sengal, open minded that makes the trip superly AWESOME!! 

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. 

Of course, it is not as easy to forget. But Allah has made it easy for me. 


I'm smiling, happily. 


To the new love :)

I'll share about the trip and more photos sooner or later, insyaAllah.

Saw him yesterday during a funeral. Unintentionally. I felt nothing. 


"Semua yang telah ditakdirkan dan dikehendaki Allah pasti terjadi" (Al-Hadith)

Thank you Allah for being so kind to me. Jadikanlah aku dari golongan orang yang bersyukur dan bertaubat. 


Thursday, November 19, 2015

The Hardest Part

I won't deny, you're one of the best things happened in my life

Somehow my wish came true

And that's the hardest part..