the last post of the month

feel like crapping about something before the month of July ends..walaupun da x dapat melawan jumlah post shaza..ok..da start crapping..haha..

from early morning today..i was thinking..how i wish to change a little bit of my characteristics that i've found to be my weakness..apetah lagi selepas peristiwa "status ditukar"..hati ini menjadi lebih keras..

ppl say that i'm too nice..and i am aware of that..terlalu nak menjaga hati sume org..kadang2 rase x sampai hati utk komen itu ini atau bg pendapat sbb takot org tu akan terasa hati dgn kte..i want everyone that i know..that i befriend with..to be comfortable with me..tau mmg susah nak puaskan hati sume org..but at least org yg x puas hati dgn kte tu jumlahnye adalah sedikit berbanding org yg selesa dan ske dgn kte..tambah2 plak hati nie akan cepat je rase bersalah dan otak plak akan pk mcm2 bler rase da sakitkan hati seseorg..lepas tu cakap "sorry"..padahal x payah pon xpe..(hoho..hati mmg sedang keras)..

"treat people like you want them to treat you"

somehow rase ragu2 dgn pernyataan ini..ade kebenarannya..x dinafikan mmg ade yg treat kte balik mcm kte treat org tu..tp ramai jgak yg x..da tu xkan nak ungkit balik ape yg kte penah buat kat die just because kte nak die treat kte macam tu jgak..

but hey.. i'm all the same..sometimes i just don't realize that i didn't treat ppl the way they treat me..that's because we are all human beings..

hati meronta-ronta supaya diri menjadi lebih keras..akal juge spt bersetuju but to a certain extent..as long as i don't feel weak and ppl are not taking me for granted..this few days da terase perubahan pd diri sendiri..i guess kawan yg rapat pon da ade yg perasan..tp bleh ke bertahan..my upbringing makes me who i am now..of course..sume org pon mcm tu kan..duhh..pelan2 laa kot..for my own good jgak i guess..but don't worry..Iynas Omar xkan byk berubah..this is just another phase of my life..

how i wish to be more firm but not less considerate..

"buat baik berpada-pada..buat jahat jgn skali"

(tiada keraguan pada pernyataan ini)

and i suddenly remembered the lyrics of my favourite song:

Stay the Same by Joey McIntyre

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Coz there's nothing bout you I would change

Camne tu?? I guess i am still finding my own true self before i would stay the same..


btw..before i end up my last post of the month..i wanna share what i've done with my partner-in-crime, Shaza today..





haha..we did actually snap the picture of our ACCY225 lecturer, Michael Fraser (stalker x ktorang?? :-P)..credit to Shaza's phone for the third pic..sumenye sbb die buat muke terganggu yg comel bler ade student kuar dan masuk lecture hall..cth sbb nak jawab phone call..lecturer laen pon terganggu gak kot tp dapat cover.. macam Michael Fraser nie die terang2 buat muke terganggu kat sume students..da laa hensem..bler buat muke lg laa adorable kan..tu yg ktorang amek gambar lepas tu..lgpon hari nie last lecture die before lecturer laen amek alih..


p/s: lg beberape hari nak masuk bulan Syaaban..lepas tu bulan mulia bulan Ramadhan..marilah kte same2 meningkatkan ibadat..