The gift and the search of better gifts in the final 10 days of Ramadhan

Today marks the final 10 days! Let's strive and finish strong! 💪💪💪 

If I can push myself in working out physically, surely I can push myself in "working out" my soul and emotional state. Doing so in Ramadhan is the perfect timing. After all, I will always remember your words, 

"Push yourself to the limit! And be patient". 

That's one of many good things that will remind me of you. Good memory remains forever. What more when it does relevantly applicable to many situations. 

And ouh! You first reveal about me to your parents during one of the sahur days in Ramadhan, exactly 60 days after we knew each other. I can still recall how thankful and grateful I was when you told your parents about me and the intention to go to the next level in the holy month. 

I thought I was strong. Allowing someone to occupy my heart had made me realized that I am weak. As much as I want others to be held responsible, at the end of the day it is me who needs to be responsible for my own happiness. Others can agree or annoyingly leave me alone. But this is the process that I have to embrace, accept and deal with. To strengthen my heart again. 

Today, alhamdulillah Allah has made me realized that the ability to missing someone once very dearly to the heart is actually a blessing. 

Thank you Allah for lending me the memorable gift, although just for a while 🙂. I ask from only You Ya Rabb, for better gifts. The best gifts. 

And with the confession, this post shall be my last words about it..

"Indeed I am in absolute need of good things You send to me" - the prayer of Nabi Musa a.s. in Surah Al-Qasas verse 24.