M.A.F.I.A

aktiviti di dalam bus..permainan MAFIA di kalangan budak2 pompuan..maafkan kami jika ade kekurangan dalam bermain MAFIA ini..kami budak baru blaja..hehehe..enjoy~

sile pause playlist imeem di sebelah kiri terlebey dahulu




sila lihat aksi host..ade style kann..hahaha

dan lihatlah bagaimana org yg same asyik dituduh sbg Mafia..naseb baek mase tu mmg betul sayelah Mafia..kwang3

M.A.F.I.A

nanti jom kte maen lg!! :-D

reflecting myself..another lesson of life

first of all..what i'll be writing here is not to respond to any issues arose..it's just that i would like to use my blog to reflect myself and what i've done..

these thoughts have been inside my head for a few days..for those who close to me..would exactly understand how i feel (i hope)..being Iynas yg byk berpk dan mudah rase bersalah but at the same time i wanna do something for myself..

i heard this line a few times these past few days: "kau kene keraskan hati"..although it was referring to someone else..i feel like it was also pointing to me in a way..

i was confused for a moment..

there's a saying that you have to think about yourself and put yourself before others before you think about everyone else..

but when you do that..people call you selfish..

personally..i hate the word 'selfish'..it's too harsh for me and it's hurtful..for me..everyone has their own reason on why they want to think about themselves first before others..there's a reason that we can't see..that is not worth to argue on..that others don't need to understand because it's too hard to justify because people want to hear what they want to believe (Nana, i curi sket quote u..hehe..coz i agree with it)

perhaps because i can't see the border line between the two: put yourself before others and being selfish..to what extent you have to think about yourself without being called selfish..

and then i was thinking (being Iynas yg byk pk)..after a number of personal reviews and comments that i had received..listened..and seen..

i believe i was doing the right thing..but in a wrong way..i did the right thing by deciding what's best for me..but at the same time i'm being selfish by not realizing my action has an impact on others..

yess..i think that is it!!

now i understand..

one of the comments written on my card said that correcting is the way,not running away..i took time before i actually accepted the truth..that i'm not actually avoiding..but running away.. shame on me..

the least i could do is to face the reality and to learn saying 'no' bravely and confidently..to learn to refuse in a good way..in a more professional way..in a more mature way..

my friends always say that i am matured..perhaps i am not matured enough

ppl say i am responsible..perhaps i am not responsible enough

i believe that i am confident..perhaps i am not confident enough

i'm sorry to let down the high hopes put on me..but now i know and realize that i have the potential (from the comments i received)..and i shall not waste it..i would not forget the opportunity and the experiences i have had..i would want to learn and experience more..and use it for my own good..if not now..maybe in the future..

but what's done is done..i couldn't go back and correct my actions in the past..but perhaps i can do something to correct them in the future..

everyday we learn something new in life to improve and make us a better person..it is one of God's gifts..and THIS is what i have learn..i am thankful for that..

at least i know i still have the chance to improve and to be a better person..

now i am relieved..

get tagged again..

seronok jgak buat tag nie..but depends on the question jgak laa..kalau rase minat dan bleh dijawab..then y not kan..hehe..

tp org2 di luar sane jgn salah sangke yg saye cume buat tag yg diberi oleh fatinn jer..sbb skarang nie cume die sorg je yg tag saye selain dpd 'Queen of Fashion' yg saye x tau sape tu..tp disebabkan saye nie mmg x reti laa pasal fashion2 nie kan..jadi maaf laa yea..hehe..

so here it goes:

rules:

1. the rules of the game get posted at the beginning

2. each player answers the questions about themselves

3. at the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

starting time: 4.00 am
name: Iynas Omar
sisters: 2
brothers: 2
shoe size: 6-7
height: 153 cm
where do you live: Taman Tun Dr. Ismail

have you ever been on a plane? Yes..1st time mase umur 5 taun g Mesir ikot Baba study kat sane..all my siblings jeles sbb saye kecik2 da naek plane mengalahkan dorg..haha

swam in the ocean? nope..x pandai swim..stakat kat tepi pantai biase laa..

fallen asleep in school? kat skola mase kecik2 dulu jarang laa..tp skarang da besar2 nie slalu plak tertido..huhu

broken someone's heart? hmm..pernah kot..

fell off your chair? setakat yg saye ingat x penah..naseb baek..hehe

sat by the phone and waited all night for someone to call? penah..sampai tertido..

saved emails? yg menarik dan penting utk disimpan

what is your room like? bilik seorg pelajar yg agak bersepah..naseb baek agak luas..hehe

what's right beside you? mouse and books on the right..bed on the left

what was the last thing you ate? mee rebus..nasi kerabu..puding roti..donut ketika berbuka puasa..mee rebus utk sahur..alhamdulillah..terima kasih!!

ever had chicken pox? pernah kot..mase kecik..x ingat pon penah kene..tp tau penah..haha

like picnics? suke2!!

who was/were the last person you dance with? chinese dance gurls during MNite - yi chin, najwa, yuyu, nida, rasyiqah, dely

last made you smile? now..talking with him :-)

you last yelled at... x ingat..cube utk tidak meninggikan suara kpd sape2..tp kalau ade bukan bermaksud saye marah tp kerana saye mmg begitu..sape2 yg da kenal saye tau laa..

today did you talk to someone you like? sedang..

kissed anyone? mak ayah..anak2 buahku yg comel!! :-D

get sick? sick as in sakit demam or sick as in sick with someone or situation? due2 pon penah

talk to an ex? yup..we're still friends

missed someone? everyday

who do you really hate? saye cube utk tidak membenci sape2

do you like your handwriting? dulu suke..kawan2 kate tulisan kemas mcm type kat komputer..tp skarang tidak lg..haha

are your toenails painted? nope

whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in? i prefer my own bed..tp kalau da ngantok sangat hentam jer laa katil sape2 pon..hehe

what colour shirt are you wearing right now? my fav colour..blue

are you a friendly person? perhaps..ppl say i am..

do you have any pets? nope

do you sleep with the tv on? kat msia slalu jer..tv terpasang tidak menghalang saye dpd tido kalau saye sgt mengantuk

what are you doing right now? doing this tag..while talking to him..si mamat gemok dan bajet :-P

can you handle the truth? yes i can..but of course it takes time..the truth hurts

are you closer to your mother or father? same jer due2..

do you eat healthy? cube sedaya upaya..hehe

do you still pictures of you and your ex? wahh..soalan cepumas nie..mungkin tidak..

if you're having a bad day, who would you most likely go to? close friends..n him

are you loud or quiet most of the time?
depends on the situation..i can be both..but most of the time diam kot..saye pemalu :-P

are you confident? confident pada diri sendiri..tp x confident dalam mengeluarkan pendapat sendiri utk pendengaran org luar..still improving..

5 things i was doing 10 years ago:
1. main kat padang dkat umah dgn kawan2 biase..rindunye kawan2 padang..
2. sangat suke menunggang basikal sekitar Taman Tun..it was indeed a good exercise
3. belajar erti 'suke'..haha
4. bermain tamagochi pemberian dari seseorg
5. mule blaja menari..my 1st dance was inang

5 things i would do if i am a billionaire:
1. pegi Mekah dan melawat negara2 yg pernah menjadi masyhur dgn Islam
2. i wanna go around the world more than 80 days!! :-D
3. simpan duit utk kegunaan pelajaran anak2 di mase depan..just like what Baba did
4. gune utk kesenangan Mama dan jalan2 kebaikan
5. nak rase perasaan duit keluar spt air ketika shopping

5 of my bad habits:
1. x tetap pendirian..agak mudah dipengaruhi
2. skarang nie makin suke tangguh keje last minute
3. mudah rase bersalah
4. byk pk..tp perlaksanaan kurang
5. kadang2 terlalu emo dan mengikut perasaan

5 places i am living in:
1. Taman Tun Dr. Ismail, Kuala Lumpur
2. Wellington, New Zealand
3. Kubur Panjang, Kedah
4. Shah Alam, Selangor
5. Tiada

5 people i tag

1. Haziq
2. Odd
3. Syerox
4. Auni Afifah
5. Azryl Ramly

end time: 6.31 am

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Tagged by Fatinn Rahman


Fuhh..lame glerr ok buat tag kali nie..sbb ade gangguan2 kecil :-P

i just learned a new theme of life

do yourself a favor

before you make others a favor

because you need the best out of you

to produce the best for others

or else

both of you will suffer

suffer is a good lesson of life

but avoiding is better than correcting

the road not taken

saye ade 2 jalan:

1. saye rase bersalah kalau x ikot jalan nie
2. tp saye akan lebey dan lagi rase bersalah kalau x ikot jalan nie

jadi saye memutuskan utk mengikut jalan yg ke-2..sekurang-kurangnye saye x perlu rase terlalu bersalah..walaupun saye rase ade org yg menunggu di jalan yg pertama tp org2 yg saye sayang menanti dgn penuh harapan di jalan yg ke-2..

kalau ade yg kecewa menunggu ketidakhadiran saye di jalan pertama..saye x sanggup melihat kehampaan insan2 yg disayangi di jalan ke-2..

pemilihan jalan juge dilakukan setelah mengukur kemampuan diri dan kerelaan diri..i'm not a fast learner..i've worked really hard to be where i am now and i don't intend to lose it all now..

kalau takot dilambung ombak..jgn berumah di tepi pantai..tp kalau da ade rumah..sebelum dilambung ombak lg..baek robohkan skarang..mungkin ade sisa2 pembuatan rumah spt kayu, batu dan sbgnye yg mencemarkan tp nyawa diri sendiri dan org2 yg disayangi dapat diselamatkan kerana itu lebey berharga..

buat ape yg saye rase patot..yess..i want to learn other things too..there's a lot to be learn in life and i love to learn them all if i got the capacity to do so..i already learnt a few..thanx for the opportunity..but rite now..i'm setting my priorities..

enough said

Baba..saye buat keputusan betul kan..saye tau saye da byk mengecewakan Baba dan sbb itu saye x mau terus menghampakan Baba..dan semestinya..diri saye sendiri..

'bayi' terlebey sehat

arghh!!

geramnye!!

camne bleh tido sampai 9 jam nie!! ishh!!

niat di hati nak tido 5-6 jam jer..hari genting hari nie..sbb?

• tax presentation + Accy302 test

hari genting mcm nie laa nak jadi 'baby' sehat kan..dgn Accy302 x abes bace lg..then i was thinking..ok laa gak..bgn awal pg..isn't that what i want? being a morning person? since two days ago i've been waking up early..plus today presentation is at noon..so i still have time to read Accy302 after i woke up..

yess..that was what i have in mind..until..

here i am..blogging..sbb?

• x dapat focus sepenuhnye..maybe sbb terlebey dos tido kot

• i keep looking at table clock..menghitung masa utk tax presentation..kenape sgt risau dgn presentation? coz my previous audit presentation was not that good..it keeps coming into my head when my tutor said that i did not think critically enough..yeahh..my mistake..too concentrate on other things eyh..

so now..dgn ilmu Accy302 yg masih belum cukup utk menghadapi test dan keperluan utk berfikir dgn kritikal utk tax presentation membuatkan diriku kini resah gelisah..

happy!! tp kene control..hehe

"yeay2!! da sampai!! yeayy2!! da sampai!! "

*dgn gaye princess bapok dalam video "encantek" mase sampai kat 'Intercontinental'* :-P

terasa diri ini suda semakin besar dan bertanggungjawab..

muahahaha!!

harapan kpd diri sendiri: kawal perasaan

family x tau nie..last year mase suarakan keinginan dorg x bg..ye laa..kalau x reti gune dan kawal..baek jgn gune..dorg takot saye x bleh handle risiko jer..nanti balik kat dorg jgak..lgpon last year mcm xde keperluan..tp taun nie..memandangkan saye berkemungkinan besar tidak pulang ke tanah air ketika cuti musim panas..maka ada keperluan..cumenye kene betol2 kawal laa..jgn sampai menyusahkan keluarga..insya Allah..

tp mmg betol2 happy laa..

nie yg bahaya bler da happy nie..

control2..da 'besar' kan..be responsible and limit yourself yea *berkate kpd diri sendiri*

:-D